i'm ranting again... sorry\n\nthis can vary depending on how you celebrate your birthday but 12 was when i started to absolutely hate turning a year older.\n\nwhen i was a young kid, my birthday would be my favorite time of the year. i would get new toys, a birthday cake, my friends would come over, everything felt fun at my age.\nbut when i turned 12, it was my transition year. i got gifts but they wouldn't last as long as the toys i've gotten in the past. the whole cake thing had gotten boring and it now felt embarrassing when my family sat there and sang to me. i had friends come over but it didn't feel as fun as it used to.\ni had grown out of birthdays but i still wanted them to be special, but they weren't. it only got worse as i got older. the celebration was the same every year and it never felt special.\n\nmy birthday is on the 1st next month and i think i'll just completely screw the birthday cake.