Like there are better things to do than fawning over celebrities.
I just realized I wasted 5 years of life literally doing nothing but staring at my screen looking at my fave's performances, reality shows, interviews, fancams etc. I thought whatever I was doing was completely okay as long as I didn't act like other crazy fangirls, who stare at their fave's pics for hours, read fanfictions, shipping etc. But I was wrong! Watching the same performance for 100 times is also equally unhealthy.
If only I had spend the time I did on my faves towards myself instead, I might've contributed a bit to the society. Probably could've brought a huge honour to my family as well. This didn't strike me until my 4th year of stanning my faves. But despite the realization, I'm still unable to get over them. This pandemic isn't helping my situation either. I spent my complete late teens towards some celebrity and I don't want to spent my twenties like that as well.
Basically I need help before I go down the rabbit hole again!
Don't give me "If only you stanned my faves, you wouldn't feel this way" kinda replies. I remember giving such replies when I was a 15 year old newbie ARMY.