OMG guys...after so many trial and error and failing my test too many times...I got it.
I finally got it
I got it yesterday since we didn't have school due to it being a teacher workday. So I took that opportunity to take my driver's writing test (it's called that but it's really you answer multiple-choice questions on an iPad)
and I took it and failed so many times that I was so discouraged that I wasn't going to pass and I DID
I had to read it a few times to really let it sink in. The first time I read through it, I honestly thought it said I failed. But it said "Congratulations, you have passed your Operator's exam" and I was literally squealing in joy and I went out to my mom who was waiting for me to finish I held out the permit page they printed out to me with all my information and it was stamped and I started crying lmao.
And then we let all our family members know and I told all my friends because they knew how much I failed this test and I won't say it here because it's embarrassing honestly lol
And I've had anxiety while taking this test and I did this time but this time I read the manual like 4 times in the 3 days prior to taking to the test. And I read it the morning of and I only scrolled through it like once before lol. I also tried to bring things with me while waiting to calm me down like looking at Jihyo photocards or looking at my Taste of Love album photobook and listening and watching KPOP related videos that gave me joy. I was still pretty nervous but I took my time. I wasn't able to get my heart to stop pounding out of my chest but I was able for me to keep from shaking, clamming up, sweating, this time.