⚠️ WARNING : VENTING AND LONG EXPLANATION STORY⚠️
so call me crazy, delulu, obsessed or whatever else.
but i literally like JUST now got finished throwing up...3 times.
why? you may ask, well it's because I found out my bias have a girlfriend.
now mind you i found this out 4 days ago, but I been pushing it at the back of my mind and trying my best not to think about it frfr.
some sasaeng account was caught by the fandok im in- selling some members information (the are a k-fan) and one of the things they were selling was MY BIAS GIRLFRIEND INSTAGRAM!!
bitch i did not ever in my life think he was even dating right now cuz he don't even give off that vibe or seem like it.
and ever since I saw that info, every time I see a post about him or content- I just look and think "he really got a girl..he probably buying her expensive gifts and giving her a kiss, and talking about marriage or some shit even though he young"...like my mind goes there
and so that's what happened just some minutes ago as I was watching a group fancam performance.
I literally just glanced at him and realized he look so fucking good...then.......it hit me that he got a girl.
I started tearing up crying standing in front of the TV watching him.
And then I thought about him buying her a MiuMiu purse and I had to run to the bathroom and throw up bad...tears down my face and all
he still bae though, im just gonna ignore he's dating and pretend I never came across that information