I really don’t or having children. I like the idea of wearing a super pretty dress and wearing bunch of makeup getting my hair, nails done being around family but like that’s the only reason the after parties r fun😭
Tbh I don’t want to have a relationship at all atp. It looks good to imagine but I just feel like it’s kind of useless at this point.
Like being able to improve yourself through people why does it have to be romantic? I feel more comfortable talking emotionally with friends tbh. I feel like my friends have made me see more perspectives than a bf/gf. Why does it specifically have to be through a partner?
I get the sense that u lose so much through marriage and you lose your identity and then when people start having kids that’s all your personality becomes. It’s just that’s your life and then you just die or get sick or something happens Or the other option is working your entire life which is better because then you are freer but then it’s also garbage because people still act like they’re in Highschool and talk shit and act miserable.
It’s like what is there to life and like what else is there to do? It’s just so pointless. And I hate that also as a woman it’s just expected that I am supposed to want to be a wife or want to have kids and my “maternal instincts” will kick in or whatever ppl say 💀 it’s just frustrating that’s all life is, it is just a big checklist and that’s so boring. Like I feel like I want this sometimes but it’s only because it will make others happy more than myself. It is what others expect of me and what they think will make me happy but it won’t. I don’t want to be tied down my entire life.