So, I got into an argument with an toxic blink, over BP the other day, and a few other nice Blinks tried to stand up for me. Though it did not work I ended up spilling a little bit of why I love the group so much and that I just don't publicly talk about them a lot due to how some Blinks are acting. But then my friend had me thinking, in his stream the other day. Why am I hiding this? Why am I not acknowledging why I am attached to their music? It only becomes a bad thing if I head the direction of obsession and attacking others for no reason.
So for me, I was in a very dark place in all of 2016 I had gone through a lot of rough stuff, most notably an not so nice ex boyfriend who would not leave me alone, among other things and I was very very sad all the time (rightfully so now looking back with all I had going on for an 18 year old girl who already had a rough childhood in an out of foster care). I ended up watching Blackpink debut and I was enjoying their music, I even bought their debut physical EP. They ended up burned along with a lot of my clothes and belonging by the ex I mentioned earlier after he broke into both my home and my biological mother's, the police did nothing (Only a couple of my albums survived this as they were in my best friend's car from a road trip). A week after this the MV for Stay came out.
This stayed on repeat for weeks and was what I listened to as I walked back to my mother's place, which I had been working on moving the rest of my belongings out of as I gotten booted from where I was supposed to live due to the incident mentioned. I had also lost access to my transportation due to the incident. He did not get arrested due to his step father being a former officer in Saint Louis. (He is in prison now for a very long time, thank all of the gods). I would play this song anytime I had an panic attack or saw his vehicle pull up to my work or anything, to zone out for a few minutes and calm myself. After Kill this Love I kinda only listened to Blackpink rarely which hurt to do because I enjoyed them but they were heading in a direction I did not really like (their B-Sides were still A+ though), I ended up coming back with The Album and HYLT. I do not want to make this too long but for me their music along with many Sistar, and Kara songs, were on repeat more than anything else during those 4 months before I finally got them to leave me alone (for at least a year and a half before they contacted me right before ending up in prison). So when someone tries to say I hate BP or that I am an anti just because I acknowledge they have some things they are not the top at, it upsets me. I am not going to go into more details than I have but just know I understand that sometimes music is the only thing keeping you from breaking or falling down a dark rabbit hole. If you are having one of those times now feel free to reach out and I will try to provide any resources I can find in your area to help!
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You are okay, I tried to explain myself and you just were in a defensive mood, you did not go to the extent of insults and threats. After I fully explained it, I feel like you understood I love them but cannot blindly say they are the best at absolutely everything, although that is easy to do as a fan sometimes. I have to understand reasoning and other stuff showing sometimes they are second and that is okay, they are still great!
