I feel so weird right and pathetic. I may be snitching on my parents, but I dont even know where to write this. Long story short. My mom said that she hates me. or she more like said it to my niece, that 'I hate your aunt' And it's not even the first time she has said this to me. she said a few years ago when I was a teen. My dad has also said it to me once. and I was expected to say sorry to my dad (But I also did something stupid that made him explode) I was so distraught that I told my mom that I wanted dad to apologise, and she said parents should never apologize.
Im no means a perfect daughter. In fact I can be an idiot sometimes, and my parents have usually said this in a fit of anger. But it doesn't sting any less.
Parents and their love is so confusing, one second they say that they hate me, and another minute they are providing generously for me. Seeing this makes me double minded, and almost pressures me to brush off what my parents say. I have discussed this with sisters, and one says that 'Mom didn't mean it' Im scared af to discuss it with my other sister in the fear that she will say the same thing.
My parents or specifically my mom hasn't had an easy life.
Im literally feeling nothing right now, because im not sure if I have the right to feel upset or resent my parents.
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