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Ok first of all i wrote a whole bible about my heartbreak but deleted cause to cut it short, my worst heartbreak was that i only "fell in love" with someone that i actually never met and every chance of talking to him i had, i fucked up. I had this fixation on him for over a decade, cried about him several times, tried to get over, smiled like an idiot whenever he was around. Mind u the first time i laid my eyes on him, i was like 7 and now i'm 20+. So this wasn't a simple infantuation. Last time i saw him was in december of 2019 so i have no idea where he is now, i think he already left town and i can't blame him for that. I could find more about him i guess, my town doesn't even have over 50k citizens but i am the shittiest stalker and tbh i don't feel like doing it. Should i go after him? Maybe but i feel like doing too much would be creepy cause having a fixation on the same dude for so long seems already creepy enough.
Ok now if i ever broke someone's heart. I think the worst i did was when i was a kid, like 10 or smth. There was these kids who used to annoy the shit out of me. They started making little cards and started throwing it on my desk. I was bullied before, so i was sensitive to anything. One of these cards was actually confessing his love to me (i don't think i even read the rest). I know he was for real cause he wasnt laughing and he wasn't my bully. I didn't like him, plain and simple, so i started to pick all these cards, tear in front of them without reading and throw it on the floor as if it meant nothing. I thought i was doing the right thing but looking back, it was extremely rude and mean. Like imagine u send someone a card confessing ur love and they do that shit in front of you. Would be trauma material for me. It's not that bad though, I'm sure there's worse.
I feel so vulnerable now i exposed myself like do i sound like an idiot, a jerk, just naive? please don't judge let's be vulnerable together