Posts by red-silk

INTJ-T, quite the rare one for females.

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I HAVE BIG BIG NEWS

wut

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yeah i mean like we get to decide for ourselves and what is best bcs after all, we know ourselves best & what we may or may not be able to handle

yeah. maybe im not eating as much as i did but def not starving myself. im eating food but not eating too much :)

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oh. well my parents trust me being home alone and they generically "trust me". my dad works most of the time & i don't see him after i arrive from school. but he does drive me to my bus stop. my mum knows when i need help & she asks me if i want & it's often times where i tell her that i need therapy (ya girl here isn't quite the most stable person) and she helps me find it. but im sorry for you. hopefully ur mom understands you some day. aww thank you im also glad i can talk with you freely ab such things; it rlly helps me

that's good! hope u enjoyed it :)

yep! There's a certain level of awareness we should all have as well in what we say as some may suffer from eating disorders but at the end of the day, it's up to the person to make their own decisions.

that's good. I know how hard it can be to take care of ourselves when we're busy or we just simply forget but I'm glad you're trying

thanks! It would honestly be hypocritical of me to not take care of myself if I'm advising others too

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well it's up to you bcs after all it's ur own body so u get to decide 4 yourself

we are. i am eating more regularly (??) but it's lowkey a habit of mine . but i am doing things better

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ah. my dad works 5 days of the week. mon, tue, & saturday he works ALL day (doesn't get home until 12 AM) and thur & fri he works half of the day. my mom does get busy but she takes care of us to her best abilities. She just has therapy for me because of my mental issues but other than that there's no other kinds of therapy i have. Yeah. they care for me but let me be most of the time. and don't worry it's fine. you have me to talk if you want

it's fine hope u feel better

you're right you're in charge of what you do as well but know what is best for your health and the risk factors for things could happen in the future as well.

good for you for taking care of yourself more. finding better habits can be different for everyone but I'm trying as well.

thanks. I just ate something and I'm feeling a lot better

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you are also ok but i mean if you want to go for it. it's up to you

i guess it is. but like i see myself and feel like i can improve. and like sometimes it's just a thing my body does. like it just already is used to it & well yeah idk. sometimes it's not me but my body who is like "yea we don't need food today/right now" . that's true tho. i try not to do it but it's somehow become a part of my daily thing or life (?)

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i mean my mom has my 2 younger siblings to take care of but i tell her im not hungry or just eat a little. she does care but won't force me to eat. i just eat a little and that's all. i exercise in the living room and sometimes my siblings join me (we do the jungkook workout routine). my parents are lenient on most things so that's good :}

thanks idk my GW is 23-27kg to be exact and I've been told I could die at that weight so I'm in quite the dilemma rn. idk what he best thing to do is.

We are definitely our harshest critics. I think the best thing to do is eat intuitively (dont starve if you're hungry but don't feel like you need to finish everything when you're not) and exercise properly without overdoing it. But don't beat yourself up if you have a "bad day."

(also sorry if I sound like I'm ranting, I am incredibly lightheaded and jittery rn)

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yeah

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my mum said not to go & i didn't wanna go cause of my past trauma & my PTSD & anxiety

past trauma

i was @ a laudromat & a dud with a gun came into the parking lot & started shooting into the air saying he was to kill us all (i was 9 back then) and i ran inside w my mum & lil bro and all of us inside the laundromat hid inside the bathroom until police came

i stayed home that day. watched stuff on my TV & computer & just took it chill

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you mom was very caring and supportive of you. that was the best thing to do.

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i also want to loose weight

my doctor says im good

but personally i don't think it's good . i wanna lower my weight

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and sometimes i don't eat to achieve that. but i don't do it on purpose. my body sometimes naturally starves itself

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I am like 43kg rn. Probably not overweight objectively but I feel like a whale. My GW is like 15kg away from that though......

also your weight is perfectly fine. I know what it feels like but if you want to lose a few kilos for the sake of feeling better / healthier / more in shape, there are sustainable ways to do it. You could actually be wrecking your metabolism right now by starving which could lead to many health complications in the future.

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yeah

that was so fucked up

i didn't go to school the next day

I'm glad you did so.

If I was your mom and found out there was a threat I'd probably wrap you in a blanket at home and put a laptop in front of you with a cup of tea. I'd be frightened for my life if I were you.

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so apparently i could've died today at school

cause fucking school got a school shooting threat YESTERDAY that was supposed to happen today yet the fuckers at school decided TO TELL US TODAY AFTER FUCKING SCHOOL HAD ENDED

and no body thought to tell us BEFORE the day started. no the dipshits at school decided not to tell us only until AFTER THE FUCKING DAY HAD ENDED

the shooting could have happened (thank god it didn't) but WHAT IF IT HAD HAPPENED?!?! they would've told no one and a shitload of students would've died (my school has 500+ students; maybe a thousand or more)

so yea i coulda died today at school

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I'm so relieved you survived that! Can't believe they didn't close that day.

my doc says I'm in the perfectly normal weight range but idk..... I still need to lose like 15kg....

I'll never be satisfied istg

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proudorbit  red-silk

this was the Random Play Dance i was part of

i danced to some songs yet wasn't in the frame for some T_T

you can see me during sugar rush ride tho. im the least professional looking dancer

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which one are you

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ahAHAHAHAHAHAH TOMORROW I SEE STRAY KIDS

TMRW I SHALL DIE EEEEEEEEEEEEEE

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Omg congrats you're gonna love it

I still have 2 months until I see Twice

It's my birthday!!!!!

I'll be accepting akorns as gifts

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i shall start on my Seungmin in LA poster for Day 2 of the Stray Kids in LA encore shows

would like to see pictures of the finished product if possible

whoa......... calm down

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i-it's for a good cause

and plus i don't feel tired ! currently it's 7:30 smth AM & im on my daily bus-ride to school & i don't feel sleepy i also brung coffee so im good

but u-uhm

take a 30 minute nap or something

You, in my imagination

Are so vivid

As if you are right there

But I reach out my hand

And you suddenly disappear

From all the memories stored in my heart

I gather up the ones of you, link them together

Gazing at them projected across the room

I feel you with every burst of pain

La la la…

Decay too far gone absorbing no light or water

Sealing my wounded heart with a rootless, leafless vow

2 glasses placed side by side, their role

Never fulfilled, ah, just as they were

Since you last touched them

From all the memories stored in my heart

I gather up the ones of you, link them together

Gazing at them projected across the room

I feel you with every burst of pain

Don’t have to be right

Just wanted you to stay the way you are

Kind hearted, always smiling, but

If tears can be measured, it took this long but

I’ve barely made it by your side

and found you

From all the memories stored in my heart

I gather up the ones of you, link them together

Gazing at them projected across the room

I fall asleep with you vivid in my arms

The words you whisper, the resonance

Wander aimlessly around the room

The fragrance I smell, the warmth I feel

As long as it lasts, as long as it lasts

You, in my imagination

Are so vivid

As if you are right there

But I reach out my hand

And you suddenly disappear

And are you happy with it?

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why is this so satisfying