I don't even like them but it's weird like they are my target audience in all my daydreams. The people that fkn traumatised me. i don't remember my classmates who were nice to me the past few years but i can name every fkr from that hell hole class almost a decade ago. Everytime I get a Pat on the back I wish there was someway I could show them. I didn't want to be a part of them. They were gossipy and fkd up I just wanted some humanity and their respect. Whenever they heard about my achievements or someone complimented me. They'd ignore it or roll their eyes or claim it's false.
They made my name sound like a bad word in school. I keep looking at myself with their eyes. I have a good life rn but people's validation is like a review I wanna wear for only THAT specific group of people to see but maybe they'd pretend not to see it even if it was on a billboard infront of them.