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well for your current boyfriend...communication is key so the next time you meet with him discussing that issue with him...

talk about things like method of communication, length, duration between communication and things like that...

as for your old boyfriend well...each of us grieve in different ways and handle out emotions differently...some people may never get over something whereas someone people are back to action the next day...it's different for everyone...

as for AKP at least one knows it's consistent!!! lol

There's nothing pathetic about this.

Try to ignore the fights here or put the people you know are prone to unnecessary arguments and starting shit on block so you wouldn't have to be subjected to more negativity in a place where you supposedly come to have fun. Avoid threads about sales, charts and comparison of achievements because that a- sucks fun from things and b- the root of all kpop drama.

And about the personal stuff you shared, I think communication is key, it's always better to have a clean closure instead of doubt and guessing. And you never know if you are probably reading too much into things. So talk to him and get it over with for your own peace of mind.

As for your late boyfriend, I'm sorry for your loss. People deal with grief in different ways, there is not one correct way to handle it. My father passed away 15 years ago and I still miss him so painfully but I still lived my life, achieved a lot and felt happiness. You can do both, live your life and remember and ache for your lost loved ones. Just remember there will always be a tomorrow where things might look and feel a little clearer and easier to deal with and your loved ones would want you to be happy and content.

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my current bf says i'm never bothering him and that he's interested but never shows it. he also says he's busy but he's on discord playing games.

i couldn't even be important to one person irl even if i tried. i used to pride myself on helping save three people from suicide on separate occasions by talking them out of it, but i can't even make myself better.

i'm unironically crying my eyes out writing this wondering when will this end. i want to wake up one day and not live in 2018. i want to wake up and not feel like i've been gutted and hollow. i want to wake up one day and just be happy.

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fights here can be very toxic, to the point it is better for you not to come into the forum .

some people are not so into sending messeges often, it doesn`t mean they don`t love you. You should adress it if it is hurting your relationship.

you sound like you can`t let things go, keep on piling them up, feelings, past tragedies, problems....choose you over your problems. Don`t look at them as a huge mountain that would swallow you, but like individual things to pick and discharge or solve. There is a really satisfying release on kicking the trash out. Start with your room, your cloth, toxic people, toxic sites.

and also, this is very stupid but very true: Vids of kittens and puppies are great. Here:

then go and study for those subjects you are failing. There are more embarrassings things than being help out by your doctor, you are a good kid.

You can do it !!!