[T/W: Depression] Life is meaningless for me

I feel you. Life sucks. I'm tired of living. There's no point anymore.

ye i just drag myself through things without really knowing where this all crap will lead

I have felt like that sometimes.

And sometimes also felt like I have failed in life because of stuff like not doing that well in college. (or at least I didn't feel like I wasn't good enough and also too lazy)

And sometimes also because I have spent a lot of times being in front of a computer instead of doing stuff that I maybe "should be doing".

I don't know why you are feeling this way though.

Well... when a close family member of mine was going through some mental health problems, I wanted to cheer her up and make those problems disappear.

Just do what u enjoy, there's no benefit of stressing too much imo

Kpop is not very good solution for depression. If you are depressed you are living in the past. Kpop mainly bring short dopamine hits, just like video games, social media, fast food, sex, drugs or alcohol.

What your brain need is serotonin

Does serotonin make you happy?

Serotonin, while similar to dopamine, creates a long-lasting feeling of happiness or well-being. Both chemicals act as hormones that help coordinate different functions and processes in our bodies like growth, metabolism, emotions and even sleep!

If you wanna improve your happiness, you have to think long term. It is never too late to change your life for better. The most important thing of all is your health. Eat healthy food, sleep well(Try to avoid caffeine as much possible) and exercise. Learn new skills, learn how to earn more money, learn how to invest money.

Minimalistic philosophy may help you a lot as well, because materialism only bring very short gratification. It does not matter how expensive car you have, or how expensive clothes you use or do you have newest iphone. Hedonic adaptation will put your happiness level very fast to baseline, no matter how much stuff you buy.

everything sucks but if i die, i want to die as a hero, so i'm def not going to end my life. i am gifted and wasting my talents is stupid. no matter how hard life gets, even if it's extremely awful atm, i'm going to keep being the smart one. like I've always been. the different one.

honestly, this sucks. others my age have a hard time as well, so they do stupid stuff like drinking and drugs and sex and whatever unhealthy shit. i want to be like that as well. kinda. i want to be able to not care. but, this is not who i am and not who i want to be. don't give up on yourself. even if it means having to endure pain. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, remember?

now, that doesn't mean that we have to get the "millionare mindset", wake up at 5 am and do 2 hours of workouts, eat avocado toast and salads and healthy stuff, cut toxic people out of our lives and journal all the time and meditate and do skincare and selfcare and whatever. don't listen to social media and to the lies people tell you on there. i mean, you can if you want to. maybe that stuff works for you. but if you are depressed like this, it probably won't help. you can't except life to get easier in a second. just try to make little changes, or listen to fun music and do some stuff like crafting or reading or just go outside if you can. what i always try to think is that I have to be perfect. but if your "perfect" is something toxic and unachievable, don't do it.

never back down, never what? never give upppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp

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Idt life has a purpose, so I don't think about "fails" or "wins"; it's rather that I don't enjoy anything so life seems pointless, and, yes, as you said, mentally draining.

I got better since i started taking medication and found a therapist that could understand me better, but have been feeling down again lately...

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everything sucks but if i die, i want to die as a hero, so i'm def not going to end my life. i am gifted and wasting my talents is stupid. no matter how hard life gets, even if it's extremely awful atm, i'm going to keep being the smart one. like I've always been. the different one.

honestly, this sucks. others my age have a hard time as well, so they do stupid stuff like drinking and drugs and sex and whatever unhealthy shit. i want to be like that as well. kinda. i want to be able to not care. but, this is not who i am and not who i want to be. don't give up on yourself. even if it means having to endure pain. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, remember?

now, that doesn't mean that we have to get the "millionare mindset", wake up at 5 am and do 2 hours of workouts, eat avocado toast and salads and healthy stuff, cut toxic people out of our lives and journal all the time and meditate and do skincare and selfcare and whatever. don't listen to social media and to the lies people tell you on there. i mean, you can if you want to. maybe that stuff works for you. but if you are depressed like this, it probably won't help. you can't except life to get easier in a second. just try to make little changes, or listen to fun music and do some stuff like crafting or reading or just go outside if you can. what i always try to think is that I have to be perfect. but if your "perfect" is something toxic and unachievable, don't do it.

never back down, never what? never give upppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp

PREACH

it is meaningless but it doesn't mean it can't be fun

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PREACH

lol thanks I completely forgot about this text haha