I'm so scared

Literally kpop of all things is the only thing preventing me from breaking down

I am terrifed

I have exams very soon and I'm scared I wont do well on them

I had to learn though remote learning and I didn't learn very much

But I also have a ton of anxiety and fear going on with my family and environment

My entire extended family is living in fear right now, and every single day we see on the news more and more corona cases.

Every single day, there's a heart wrenching story, and the fear, that it will also happen to us and the people we know and love.

I feel like everything is falling apart, my exams, my school grade, but also my family, and the worst thing is that we can't do anything.

All we can do is just watch and wait and pray for the best---I don't know how much longer until I have a mental breakdown somehow

I guess I just want some moral assurance that everything will be okay

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You can do it girl!!! Don't Give Up!!! No matter what you will be fine. We are here for you. If you want any help you can ask us!!

:)

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Hey you really go through really hard times and I wish I can help you. The only thing I can do is to say everything is gonna be alright

hahaha thank you

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I am also kind of going through this situation. Lockdown made me locked up with toxic family members. And every day someone is fighting. Whereas the situation in my city is worse as well. Makes me anxious as well. So much bad news every day. Even one of my relatives is fighting covid rn in a hospital. I can totally understand how frustrating it must be for you, hearing bad news every day and not being able to help. But one of the NCT guild members told me that we are playing our part by staying at home, we are at least doing something. Honestly, that anxiety never goes, I keep an oximeter and a thermometer with me every time. So, to break that chain of anxiety, I keep remembering half left work and write it on a to-do list, then I start cleaning my room(it's the best therapy, to be honest) and whenever I get my mood right to do study, I just do it. Whether my time is 5 mins or 20 mins, Idc. We all are suffering and it's okay to take your time. Sometimes it's important to go through these types of feelings to next time handle with better care.

I had a bad anxiety breakdown 1 year back and was immediately rushed to a local doctor. Lockdown makes things worse. 1 or 2 days ago I was again in that chain and was about to burst. Things like this is ought to happen. The only thing that can keep you sane is to give a little rest from bad news, this will be your step 1. I did this and helped me a lot. step 2 might be funny, but I start doing deep breathing in case I sense some physical symptoms of anxiety.

We dont know when this will end. Who thought that we will again be getting that second and third wave.

I will pray for you to have a stable situation. I am with you. And us akp friends will definitely help you in anycase you feel low.

Thank you my friend. It's so unfortunate isn't it? Just when everyone thought we were in the clear- I don't know how well I will be doing on these exams this year but I will try very hard to perform well. I think I may even deactivate from posting for a bit, but still come back at night to chat with the guild.