About racism..

    I dont consider myself kpop fan anymore but, being kpop fan been part of my life for long time, I started being kpop fan around time boa and tvxq were considered rookies so yeah been long time.


    I stopped being invested in kpop around time kris left exo, I am still on Twitter so from time to time being anime fan I still come into contact with kpop news, so I did see crush incident and to say least I am not supprised but something happened to me yesterday, and as usual cuz I dont have real frineds and I dont talk to my family. And I dont have anywhere to talk to people in general but online I want to tell you guys about it, to get it out my chest cuz it hurt me.


    I am dentist, I graduated recently and cuz I am depressed I thought if I helped people it would help me feel better, so I went into something like community service for rural places that dont have easy access to medical care, and cuz I was the only one graduated they put me on charge, I am black but not american, I am egyptian nubian, so I am black Egyptian in arab majority country while indegious minorities like nubians who are africans, so we look different then rest egyptian population, anyway So after I finish and we ready to leave I was walking to the bus and one of the local kids saw me and said in arabic " I seek refuge of allah from satan", I didnt react and just ignore it, but while on bus I thought why would he say that then it hit me that it was night time and I am black and he living in rural area propabitly never saw black person before.


    Remeber I am already depressed have low self steem, went into this to try and help people but then this happened.


    I am tired mentally, depressed, this may sound weird but it exhausting, I am fighting my own negative thoughts and I feel like I am lossing.

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    Remeber I am already depressed have low self steem, went into this to try and help people but then this happened.

    Never be discouraged by one bad incident. Always remember that there are challenges that come with being in a place where you're the minority. If it's not your skin color, it's something else that they'll judge, stigmatize, and misunderstand you for.


    It's easier said than done, but it's worth building resilience and adopting a stoic mindset. It helps to remember your intentions. You mentioned you're there for a good cause. Keep that close to your heart. As long as you know you've got a bigger purpose out there, you can let that be the driving force to overcome any obstacles.


    As far as how to process your emotions in a healthy way, I don't have all the answers to that because it varies from person to person, so I recommend searching for what works for you.


    I wish you the best for your endeavors.

    Arab supremacy ideology is very much common in the Islamic countries. I'm not surprised by your experience.


    I was talking about this to another friend of mine who is also African Muslim this week. She experience very similar things as well and people just assume she doesn't know Arabic bc she is a black woman. I highly suggest looking for other nonarab Muslim friends and talk about this experience, it helps to know other people who go through similar situations.

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