Its easy to hide emotion through text.
Its very easy.
I usually don't try to talk about my problems a lot but its time I do because its really hard not to now.
I've been struggling with anxiety for a long time and now its really getting to me.
Whenever someone is talking behind me it clicks in my head "oh their talking about me" about how stupid I am. About how ugly I am. Those thoughts just run through my head, but I'll never know their true because I'm to scared that if I ask they'll say yes.
Now every time someone talks I scratch my arms... I hurt myself because I can only think their talking about me.
But have I done anything wrong?
And when the popular kids come up to ask me if I'm okay all I can say is "yes" but I know I'm not.
I just want to cry, but I cant. Because if I cry they'll laugh at me... won't they?
Please don't leave me alone any more mom. I hate you so much but when I'm alone I do the unthinkable, on the outside I'm a happy outgoing girl, but on the inside I'm nothing.
To myself I am nothing, to everyone else I am nothing, even to my pets I am nothing.
Why cant I become what everyone else wants of me? Please Please Please let me out.
I need happiness, I see it but I cant reach it someone... save me.
