I remember when covid spread in 2020 how extremely frustrated I was. The mots7 promotion was hindered severely and the massive world tour BTS had planned was cancelled. I had a feeling similar to grief and I was crying while I watched that RM vlive where he expressed deep frustration and heartbreak at the thought of cancelling a tour they'd been preparing for years. I wanted to fight covid personally just so the boys could get what they wanted.
Then dynamite and the other singles happened. Be was also released. I enjoyed these songs but I couldn't help the feeling that these were just releases to tide us over until covid was under control and things were back to normal. They felt a bit disconnected and disjointed from the previous discography.
I thought we were waiting for covid to end so they can begin the real next chapter with new music direction and a new music trilogy or duology. It felt like this was all planned out and they were waiting for the pandemic to get under control so they could release their long awaited banger album. Well it was a new chapter, just not what I thought.
Recently we all found out that mots7 was originally supposed to tie up their group career before having their well deserved break. Looking at it now, it all makes sense. Listening to the album really drives it home with the lyrics and messages they were relaying to us. When I heard wab:e the first time I remember it giving me deep unexplained sadness and I couldn't get the idea of it sounding like a goodbye song out of my head. Even now I struggle to listen to this song because it gets me so emotional despite the fact that it's one of my favorite BTS songs. Now I'm sure that's exactly what it was meant to be. Black swan talked about their burnout just as they talked about in the dinner video. Everything was laid out plainly for us but we couldn't see it at the time.
They were supposed to tour for a long time before probably releasing the compilation as a final bye.
What does any of this have to do with me being thankful for covid?
The truth is that without it, we would have had to say goodbye sooner than this and that just kind of breaks me. It's very selfish of me I know. The bts members were tired mentally and physically while also extremely stressed, they had to put off a whole slew of plans for years because of it. They can't even give us a goodbye tour and so many fans missed out on seeing them together one last time before the big break.
I feel guilty for feeling this way and enjoying a time where the members were being overwhelmed and feeling lost. But without corvid there would be no dynamite, no butter, no BE which has some of my favorite songs and probably none of the collabs they did as well. A lot of these releases brought me some of my happiest moments as an army and memories that will stay with me for a long time. They also got me through a very difficult period.
It just kind of makes me sad that there was a probable reality where certain things wouldn't have existed if a pandemic no one saw coming had taken over the world.
I posted this here because I wanted to lay my thoughts out with no pressures or expectations. It so doesn't hurt to have some threads here that aren't pure hate and bullshit.
