personal f***ing poetry/rant 23

and i remember summer of 18 like it was yesterday

too nice and partially to blame for the salt in your little sister's eyes

i was the debt collector coming to the door on your mind

banging with force on your prefrontal cortex

penny and dime you for your decisions and your relations and anticipated sex

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still have the note you gave me, urging me into sneaking up to room 405

you hid in the closet but the adults were never too mad when it came to us in particular and the rules we defied

your heart so malleable, telling me you would love me until your dying breath

i thought i would be first, we'd be opposites and you'd lay me to rest

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sometimes i wonder how to do this without the green eyes i loved so much

sometimes i wonder how you derail my poems into wild rants that cease to seem beautiful to others in my eyes

i must confess i still text your number, hoping for a miracle

hoping for a life where i move back to the small town where we met

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a life where i no longer use "sticky sweet summer" to describe the more humid months of the timepiece our universe uses

a life where i wear pretty maxi dresses with itchy fabric to visit the supermarket once a week, barefoot feet on scalding pavement

romanticizing a life with a small pet to accompany me on my journey while i sleep through the more unbearable hours

romanticizing a life where i visit all the places we once were, all those decades ago, falling asleep perfectly sober on park benches

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feeling my lips go cold, knowing that i'll finally reunite with the one i've lost all those years ago

feeling the dreams materialize, last night i dreamt of a two coffins, connected hands and a tube

and as morbid as it sounds, it reminded me of you

- A.H.

Quote from common-nobody

the fact that you can express yourself in such a beautiful and romantic way is admirable to be honest. being able to materialize your thoughts and put them on text isn't something many people can do well.

i'm really happy you found something that helps you vent and express your emotions.

you have great grammar too! lol

taylor would be proud. :shyy:

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dhvfsvvcjidvhfuv omg you're so sweet

sometimes i wonder if i should publish a book haha

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good luck with that my friend... have you written down all your akp rants somewhere? lol

yep! haha

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i'll def support you if i can

omg ur so sweet

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That was absolutely beautiful It’s so amazing how you can express yourself in such a poetic manner, I’m amazed❤️

omg thank you so much you're so sweet

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if you do give a special thanks credit to selfie lol

i will

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alsO this reminds a lot about the anime Violet Evergarden

there's this company that has a group of young women called "dolls" that write letters for their customers. the customer narrates what they want to say to a person, so that the dolls can transfer their feelings onto paper and help the customer communicate with their loved ones in a sincere and moving way.

fits well because you have Violet in your username

omg holy shit that sounds so cool?!