how to live with the fact that you are cursed?

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i have a talisman now but not sure whether works...does it takes time or what?

I don't believe in such things mystically. I meant that it can help to relief the stress and to feel more confident for those people who do. And in turn, a confident person is more successful. Will it help depends on how much you believe that it can do something for you. Same for religion. Maybe there is something you believe more than in talismans, then use it.

Jesus said: “According to your faith let it be done to you”. Psychologists appove. :)

Quote from nanako_daniel

live in asia

nobody appreciate me lol

I know things are approached differently in the West and East. They probably don't appreciate you because they cannot see your worth based on material things. As long as you know your worth, it doesn't matter if they see it or not. Every life has value and this could be a way for you to add more value. If you can't land a local internship because you don't know someone, why not see what remote opportunities you can find internationally? Translation is a valuable service.

Lots of western-world internships are now happening online. If you cannot find one, there is always the alternative of volunteering with a willing company just to have some experience to list on your resume. Volunteering isn't usually paid, but it does give you the opportunity to make your own schedule. What is your level of education?