"Don't tell me that you love me
Cause I won't love back
Don't tell me that you need me
Cause I don't need that"
i could be delusional, out of my fucking mind
but i think you just LOVE sending messages through lyrics
i would too, if i had the time to chose songs to listen to that would piss you off
but i guess only you have the time to get your little notion across
i wanted to write about emeralds, because you're a gemini
i wanted to write about chinese food, because it's the first meal i ate with your family
i wanted to write about august, and our first date
i wanted to write about cinnamon donut soap, because it reminds me of everytime i washed my hands clean
i wanted to write about lime-colored walls, the first sight i woke up to in the autumn mornings
i wanted to write about zebra cakes, and how your mom playfully warned me not to eat them for the sake of sparing me from a migraine
i wanted to write about blue elevators, and how our silent appreciation of us standing next to each other was enough for us
but i never quite got that far.
you stayed around long enough just to take every single sane part of me left.
and then instantaneously you disappeared.
like a tornado in the 1800's
you came without warning and leveled the structures and homes of everything that was.
you leave destruction and terror in your wake for anyone who dares to love you.
i guess i can't feel too bad for still caring
i know i'm not the only one struggling to rebuild after waking up, bloodied, in the wreckage
wondering what the fuck just happened, and where the fuck i am
it was a cruel awakening for all of us
we thought we stood in dorothy's sparkly red shoes
we thought your whirlwinds would save us from our cruel reality
that's how the story goes, right?
instead, we awoke in a land worse than hell
all of us in a purgatory, stuck between loving and hating you
meanwhile, you're busy wearing the virginities you took, like a necklace
and if we could, we would plant kisses on your forehead as the life leaves your sad puppy eyes
you tore out pages of the fairytale because you're too scared of the finality of a happily ever after
you yearn for lyrics?
a response?
"You knew the password, so I let you in the door
You knew you won, so what's the point of keeping score?
You knew it still hurts underneath my scars
From when they pulled me apart
But what you did was just as dark
Darling, this was just as hard"
