we taught history together
and i remember my youthful brain, buzzing with emotion and wondered
๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ข ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ?
๐ด๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ด๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฏ ๐ฆ๐บ๐ฆ๐ด
๐ด๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ด๐ต๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐จ, ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ข๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ด
๐ข๐ด ๐ช๐ง ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ค๐ถ๐ญ๐ฑ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐บ ๐ข ๐จ๐ฐ๐ฅ...
and my friends unknowingly make jokes about how ๐ช was your little starlet
the way we glittered like a hundred thousand princess cut diamonds in the dimmest rooms
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my schoolgirl crush poorly covered up the trauma from the previous year
like a white sheet over a newly discovered corpse on a windy day
i think i knew someday it would catch up to me
and as quick as you came, you were gone
๐ช ๐ด๐ฉ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ข ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ฎ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐ข ๐จ๐ช๐ณ๐ญ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ณ๐ถ๐ด๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ...
A's became C's
my schedule became absolutely fucked
friends became foes
strangers became judgemental
angry glares from the woman you call your wife, furiousness hiding behind the mask of a counselor
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you remain my biggest failure
my one and only regret in my lifetime
hypotheticals sing to me like morning doves
๐ช ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐ต๐ข๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ, ๐ช'๐ฎ ๐ง๐ช๐ฏ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐จ๐ณ๐ข๐ฅ๐ถ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ
scenarios float in my mind like balloons in the sky above Disney World
๐ช๐ต'๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ. ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ข ๐จ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ถ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ค๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ. ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ช๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ.
lyrics change themselves, melodies contort to the memory of you
๐ช ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ญ๐บ ๐ง๐ช๐ง๐ต๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ, ๐ช ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ, ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ช ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ช ๐ฎ๐ช๐ด๐ด ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ
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i became a tutor after we were forced apart by a not-so-happy ending
i guess you could say we both had kids, the same ones
and they'd tell stories of your antics, unaware of our past
i sit and try paste on my best smile, but the glue dried too quickly
at least i tried.
we taught history together until we became a part of it
