What did you learn about yourself this year?

In anon because there might be some info you'd like to keep private.

Me:

1. I like being sexy, it's just the way I am. I "learned" this because I used to be ashamed of the thought and would try to dress manly and be as stiff as possible. Living with a sexist family in a sexist/misogynist environment. I wouldnt dare to be feminine because I was afraid of how my family would see me, and the negative attention i would get. But I realize I can't fight it. Its how I am, its one of the things that makes me feel great. It took me a lot of time to accept this in myself. I used to be very ashamed about it. Not anymore.

2. I learned that I am bisexual and EVERYTHING started making so much sense! I'm really happy about that. Being bi is very confusing, and people might not take it seriously. But its how I am and I'm glad I've come to terms with that.

3. I accepted that it's fine if I never get into a relationship and be forever alone so I dont feel bad or anxious anymore and it really feels great. I dont expect anything anymore and just appreciate things how they are and understand if its not supposed to work for me. Before, I used to be extremely upset about it, as if I was cursed or something. Now? I am genuinely fine. I am interested in learning more about myself and others instead of jumping into relationships that make me uncomfortable or that isn't meant to be.

Tldr

1. I enjoy being sexy

2. Im bi

3.i accept the possibility of being forever alone without the stigma of it being a bad thing

1. I'm pretty. I used to think I was ugly, I'm really not.

2. I'm deeply flawed socially. I contradict myself all the time and lose friends for it. I am bettering myself.

3. Family is the most important thing in my life. And I mean my parents and siblings, I don't want to have children of my own. I want to grow to become someone that can take care of our household.

I learned that I am not as confident as I think I am this year. I learned that I am deeply insecure and have a looot of problems to work on. I also learned that I'm not that good at sports. At all. and I'm terrible at chemistry and anything to do with science. And finally, I learned that I have no real career goal or interest in life. So that's fun.

i started praising myself for my intelligence cause my psychiatrist suggested it. always thought it was self absorbed to do so

discovered i have a lot more going for me than i thought. feels good to recognize my skills/hard work and stop being overly modest

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tl;dr — found out i was S M O R T

im not smart like i thought.

i have pick me girl attributes

im trying to work on that.

i also learned that i prefer introverts to extroverts despite being an extrovert myself

finally, i started realizing what i want to do with my life, and I've realized how to work towards it.