I feel confused :(

so i went to the neurologist a couple of months ago and he told me that i had characteristics of asperger's syndrome, also known as level 1 autism.

however, he added that those characteristics weren't present enough for him to actually diagnose me with asperger's, so i'm basically not neurotypical enough to be neurotypical, but not neurodivergent enough to be neurodivergent.

and now i feel out of place because i don't belong in any of the two "communities" (for a lack of better words). i'm exactly in the middle and it's a bit saddening personally, because i thought that maybe having a doctor confirm that my brain works differently from the average person would explain why i've never liked socializing, why i find it hard to communicate with other people, why i've always felt so different from other people. turns out i'm just a weird kid.

at least he confirmed that i'm smart??? that's nice i suppose

Quote from superyeah

Was a brain scan performed or did he just base this on some tests he had you do?

Either way, since those characteristics weren't present enough, there's still a possibility that you might not have any of it at all.

There's a tendency for people in general to diagnose others with things they don't have anyway. I'm not on the spectrum. I just socialize differently due to my social anxiety and past trauma, but people have suspected it in me before. It kinda irritates me, but hey, it's whatever.

You might just be unique, just like many others in the world, including some of the coolest people. As long as you're not harming anyone, including yourself, there's nothing to be worried about.

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yep, he did a brain scan

Quote from superyeah

This is the only thing you should be thinking about.

Really, it doesn't matter where you fit in or if you even fit in at all. As long as you're able to function in life and do what you need to do, that's what's important.

Please don't be sad about any of this.

Quote from superyeah

Was a brain scan performed or did he just base this on some tests he had you do?

Either way, since those characteristics weren't present enough, there's still a possibility that you might not have any of it at all.

There's a tendency for people in general to diagnose others with things they don't have anyway. I'm not on the spectrum. I just socialize differently due to my social anxiety and past trauma, but people have suspected it in me before. It kinda irritates me, but hey, it's whatever.

You might just be unique, just like many others in the world, including some of the coolest people. As long as you're not harming anyone, including yourself, there's nothing to be worried about.

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i never really thought about it this way.. you're right.

wow, that was actually really helpful and eye-opening. thank you i feel more secure now.

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Perhaps this won't help much, but I think you're situation is actually pretty liberating from a certain perspective. You can't be defined by or categorized into a circle of people based on a general label.

i'd never expect akp people to be wise but i've actually recieved lots of helpful and smart replies in this thread.

thank you ice bear