this part of so far away because it's relatable to me :
That I have don’t have anything I want to do
feels really shitty
That I don’t even have a common dream
I know it’s pathetic I know
They said everything would be fine if I did what I was told to do
They said everything would be fine if I went to a college
I’m an idiot for listening to and believing those words
I live only because I can’t die
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Yeah, I fucking live only because I can’t die
That I don’t have anything I want to do
is painful than anything and makes me lonely
But everyone around me tells me to come to my senses
The only one that I can vent my anger on is myself, so why should I even take it out
Every morning, I’m scared to open my eyes and breathe
and then this part kinda gives you hope in the same song:
dream, hope it to be there with you at your creation and at the end of your life
dream, will be generous to you wherever you stand
dream, will eventually be in full bloom at the end of hardships
dream, the beginnings will seem humble, so prosperous will the future be