Don't want to live but don't want to die

I have had times I’ve felt this way but my daughter stops me. I would be nothing without her.

I think in life everyone has thought about it tbh.

I dont wanna live, but I dont wanna feel pain in my last moments either. Sometimes I think the only reason Im still living is because I didnt find a way to die painless and in a state of mind where I can still be me while I die. Other than that Im really done with this damn life.

So yeah I feel you OP