your life is slipping through your fingers and everything is going to shit and nothing is enjoyable anymore because you're aware of how badly you're declining 
what happened and how did you fix it
what happened and how did you fix it
i don't know if this will help you but what i did was quit all my vices(alcohol, drugs, gambling) and started to try things i hated like a healthy diet and exercise. my life ain't perfect but it was a disaster and now-- not so much
