Idk where else to post this, but I really want to be an actress. I like creating films and I like doing anything with film. I'm 9999999% sure I want to move back to SK to pursue my dreams, and I'm not sure how to go about doing it. Should I finish high school in the US (my grades are terrible, gpa at 3.4) and then attend Korean University majoring in film and business or should I audition for companies? I was thinking of audition for Kpop companies under the acting section, but I heard most just get thrown into the kpop trainee system. Idk how true that is. I just want to work with art and I don't mind being an idol either. I honestly don't care about the size of the company or what they want to debut me as (as long as its not 19+, R rate) as long as they can TRAIN me and sign me in.
I've studied classical/contemporary art since I was 2, and taken lessons for musical theater in tech, management, writing, stage, etc since I was 8. I've taken breaks and switched out multiple times towards animation and management, I can generally, somewhat, to some extent know how to/and can produce film. I can do concept and media direction as well.
I'm 16 and turning 17 soon, which is getting me worried about me debuting. I feel like I wasted my life and my mental health for something that doesn't even remotely like me back, but I still love. I'm roughly 175cm weighing at around 125-128 pounds, and been told to just lose weight and model instead. Personally, as someone who can do just about anything in the arts (doing it extremely well is another topic), I feel like I should try a little harder. I can sing, somewhat dance Ig, do all that I mentioned before, and write anything well. I have no idea how to compose, but I'm starting to think I should learn that too.
Honestly, I'm sick of learning this and that. I want to debut. As what? Idk what should I debut as atp?
Oh, I should mention that I'm ethically Korean, hold a Korean passport, speaks it, (eh on writing) and grew up in the US. I gotten suggestions to go into krn ent, but never really decided to go into it until earlier this summer. I always assumed I'd go into US ent (and ignored every chance at sk ent like an idiot) for a lot of personal reasons.
I still think I have a better chance (well I always did) in SK ent then I do in US ent, but I'm stuck right now.
Do I stay here, finish school, attend uni there, and then go in (idk if my sanity can last that long) or should I apply/audition sometime before 17 birthday and attend my last year of high school in Korea? I'd probably attend a foreigner or arts school if I do thou.
Thanks for reading, pls reply.
