I had the same experience when Jonghyun passed away.
It is never easy in the beginning because all you associate with the person is them passing away. It reminded me of the time I lost someone in real life and it ain't an easy mission to move on.
After some time passed I started to appreciate what he gave as an artist and as an entertainer.
I know it won't be easy for anyone in the beginning, especially for his sister Moon Sua, but don't let this tragedy blind you to all the things Moonbin gave to his fans and the public as a member of Astro.
Sending prayers and virtual hugs to everyone who got affected by this news or lost loved ones in their lives