It's ok🥲

I always say to myself that I want to be alone now and for the rest of my life. But in reality I want that special someone in my life. Maybe I'm lonely but who cares, I'm tired of being that person that do for people but doesn't get anything back. Also I always work so hard until my mental breakdown that it's feels unfair. I also feel like that I wanna get affection from my future partner. I'm so afraid that the person I like will find out my flaws which is stupid because of course no one is perfect but there was this guy that I liked and I didn't know how to talk to him so I would just stare at him. So he said a rude comment to me and I was so hurt and sad about it during thatsituation. ( He wasn't all that anyways) I'm just ranting my feelings...

what did he say??