Oh, I understand you perfectly. I wouldn't say I liked receiving expensive gifts either. It wasn't easy to receive them because I was not in the best financial situation, and I would not be able to offer the same thing in return. But I found a very good solution to this problem: giving gift baskets as a sign of thanks. These are modest and unique gifts that I prefer to give not necessarily as thanks but simply for no reason to improve the day of loved ones. Thus I equate the expensive gifts that I started accepting with these baskets. That was my way of coping.