But I'm so tired... I'm trying not to revert to old habits... Honestly, the insults are just causing me to eat more and I'm getting so guilty about it. And I can't tell anyone because they think I should just lose weight...
Stop caring what other people think. Your family should support you instead of insulting you. If you get serious health problems you should lose weight. But this should be your own decision. If you start losing weight because of other people, it will probably not work. You need the motivation to start, because you want to lose some weight for a strong reason.
I know many people that try to lose weight because of the job, because of the girls, because of annoying friends and family members. They lost weight, but gained it back after some time.
Think about the advantages you would have when being fit and slim. If you care what other people think, visualize their puzzled looks, after your look changed to the better. Think about getting fitter than the persons insulting you at the moment. This can motivate you, but in general you should lose weight because you want it.
About 2 years ago I had 120 kg. Now I have 90 kg. I'm still too heavy in my opinion (80 kg would be ok), but at least my diet still works, so I had no 'yo-yo-Effekt' . On the other hand there's no hurry to lose 10 kilos more. But if I had ever cared what other people think about my weight, I'd be still a hippo on two legs. ![wink ;-)](https://forum.allkpop.com/suite/images/smilies/emojione/1f609.png)
I ate too much when I got stressed. People telling me I'm too fat would be pure stress. And my stress compensation was eating! So ... hello Downward Spiral!