why the fuck do you always have to try to outdo me?
and then think i'll care enough to look?
fuck you, i'll look but i won't.
i'd call you a son of a bitch but your mom was so lovely back when you were still a part of my life
i post pics of my vacation
you're first to see
you post pics of your vacation
i can see the preview on your story
i'm not going to fucking look at it
i'm not going to open your stupid fucking story to see you running around on a fucking beach with her
when that was supposed to be me, going on your family trips
back then i covered my ankles and shoulders in lightening cream, thinking i would actually end up being in a swimsuit for the first time in years
thankfully my self harm scars never got to see the fucking florida sun
i don't know if she's with you, but i'll assume, i'll make an ass out of you and me.
why do i want you back even a little bit? you are a DISGUSTING, horrible human being, and should be in fucking jail.
for someone who just fucking hates me apparently, you spend a lot of time fucking taunting me. why? for what?
you're not supposed to care? correct me if i'm wrong?
but i want you to
i want you to feel hurt from the past like small slivers of glass shards in your heart
one day, you'll be sitting
and it will hit you
you dumped a girl who bought you $216 worth of gifts during our relationship, on days that weren't even special
a girl who drove up 3 hours every weekend to see you
a girl who who really fucking loved you
a girl your family loved, who loved your family
a girl who held you all night when you were throwing up everywhere
i could go on
but i'm that girl
and one day you'll feel it in your bones
"i think i fucked up"
i need you like i need a hole in my head
good thing i want to be dead.
