Risperdal and Tegretol drained my life... I feel NUMB but at the same full of despair. I cannot endure so much suffering... There's little hope with all that little information about recovery and coming back to normal after quitting these meds.
Irreversible damage? WTF... How am I supposed to live with my Dopamine and serotonine receptors nerfed?
Every time I'm more and more convinced that I'm gonna die... Probably falling from a tall building or something. I don't have patience anymore.
I need to vent! I'm so polarized right now... I would like to know that I'm going back to normal and have some hope but it seems that things are not going into that direction.
