[enter-talk] STRAY KIDS HWANG HYUNJIN
Hi. I have posted a post on Etta (t/n: Everytime.Kr, this online community is a community specifically made for universities in Korea, just like JBG's case and many other cases, people have made allegations on Etta before coming to PANN), but I deleted that post in order to write this post.
I am a victim of school violence from HHJ and his friend in the same class as me, in the second grade in Seongnae Middle School.
Just thinking about how I have even considered suicide because the past was so hellish for me, makes my hands tremble and my body shiver just with the memories of the past.
Ever since this assailant debuted, whenever he would appear on TV, I was reminded of all the bad memories I had. Even now, because of the mental state I'm in, it's painful to even go through my daily life.
He verbally abused me for failing to stop the ball during the ball game on campus and cursed at my body.
I became his victim of bullying ever since I wasn't able to stop the ball, and ever since, I was mocked, ignored, and harassed by HHJ.
He would make comments like "Are you (my name) in the group chat?" "You're just like OO" He would make jokes and remarks in the group chat by mentioning my name all the time.
Things like that happened all the time, and whenever I saw the chat room, I couldn't bring myself to do anything and eventually fell in depression. In the end, I got so scared of the chatroom that I couldn't even enter it anymore. My self-esteem hit the bottom.
Besides this, there was another kid in the class who had the same first name as me. HHJ changed their last name to mine to see other people's reactions and they all started laughing saying how funny it was (most of the people in my class knew that I was the bullied one so everyone hated me). This left me with a big scar. Even if I want to wash it away, I still cannot wash it, and if I try to forget it, I cannot forget it. It is still difficult to deal with people because of the shocks, wounds, and trauma that I've received.
Without being able to express by dislike about other people, I just lived my life quietly until now. I would like to say that I had a lot of convers and had to gather a lot of courage to write this. It would've been hard for me to do this alone, but when I see the support around me, I gained courage to speak up.
I was a victim and I don't want to have anything to do with malicious comments and hateful rumors.
I was attacked one-sided, unable to say a word.
There is no solid evidence, but I am living proof myself, nothing that I said was untruthful, and I am also collecting testimony from other alumni.
Sorry if I seem like I'm speaking without proofs.
This is really what I went through as it happened. I don't want to overlook the pain that made me want to kill myself. I don't have any screencaps, recordings or videos, but I will gather testimonies from my acquaintances.
This is me writing this after a lot of time has passed so of course there might be many missing parts, but for now, I briefly wrote down my pain based on the true facts that I experienced. Thank you for reading the long article.
I didn't write anything I couldn't remember well, and I'm proud that there is no single lie or exaggeration.
The first and second picture is the same person and a close friend in middle school. They contacted me after seeing the article that came out today.
The 3rd picture is another person from the same class
OP: I got bullied by that person right?
X: Right. If you have things to say, try sending this to JYP. So you don't have any data (proofs) at all?
OP: Nopㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
X: When I saw that article, I thought of you right away
OP: I need proofs that will show how I got to know he became a celebrity
X: We had to go to the study room together that time, and you said that you had to stop by home so I was waiting in the hallway.
But when you came out, you told your mom you loved her and closed the door
OP: Yeah
X: At that point, I asked you why would you say "I love you" to your mom and you said that you were having it so hard, you didn't know when you would die because you were having a lot of those thoughts lately
OP: Yeah at that time, I had it so hard
X: But this got me so upset, I still have memories of what you told me back then.. 
OP: Do you still remember things about me getting bullied by any chance? Since I don't have any other friends in my class TT
X: I don't remember much about the bullying, but I remember him swearing and mixing your name with that other student with the same name as you. I also remember the response of that other student. [The student] couldn't get mad or say that they hated it, but you could tell they didn't like it.. Meanwhile HHJ was laughing
I know that this isn't considered proofs, but I'm attaching these pictures in case it can prove that I was in the same class as him and I got bullied
"-It's hard to pretend to be calm
- I'm pretending to be calm every day
- I'm f*cking sad
- I want to call you.. please save me.."
"Yeah, I'm having it so hard and I want to die. I'm sorry for worrying you. Sorry for purposely pretending to be calm"
